This past week was a true testament to the progress that I’ve made in my journey to heal from Generalized Anxiety Disorder/Panic Disorder (GAD/PD). I was traveling by plane to Tennessee, where I would meet up with my pen pal who I hadn’t seen in person for nearly 24 years. I also had 6/28 looming. More on that here. This time though, when the plane took off, I had a smile on my face. I didn’t grip the seat during take-off like I usually do. Instead, I joked around with my daughter. This set the stage for what was to come during the week. A little turbulence, but mostly smooth sailing.
Something to note, my pen pal may or may not be my twin flame. (Some back story here) I hate using this term, twin flame, because I feel like it has been sensationalized by people like Megan Fox and MGK. Now everyone is associating it with drinking each other’s blood and whirlwind eccentric romance. Instead, for myself it describes a relationship with someone who plays a crucial role in your spiritual growth. It doesn’t necessarily have to be romantic, but it is intense and works as a mirror to reflect what you need to see. There is an interesting article about it here.
Honestly, I had never heard of the term until a family friend of mine, who happens to also be a spiritual counselor suggested it to me when I explained the relationship I have with James. Upon digging into it some more, it made a lot of sense. However, it’s entirely possible that it is simply a fantasy that lives only in our minds. However, the millions of written words we’ve exchanged is evidence that does suggest otherwise.
James and I go through cycles. When we meet up again, it typically feels like we start off right where we left, as if we were never apart. The comfort level is remarkable. It’s just like we are supposed to be where we are. From my reading I’ve learned that twin flames naturally go through periods of separation. Here’s another article I found.
For us, it seems we have our seasons. These are short, extremely intense, and transformational. Even with the progress we have made, I can’t help but feel that we still have a lot of work to do. A lot of which must be done on an individual basis. These transitions seem to occur in spurts, maybe even over lifetimes, as we move towards getting it right. After the latest episode, it’s possible we’ll be…